What am I doing here?

Welcome to the new me!


This blog is designed to chart my journey from sofa geek to fitness freak. So to start, a bit about me.

Like many people I’ve been overweight pretty much my whole life. I’ve done a variety of diets from calorie counting to slimming world to very low calorie diets. I usually manage to lose weight but then something makes me lose focus and it all goes back on again (age old story)! Last year I did really well losing 3.5 stone through diet and exercise and I felt so good about myself but then life got in the way, I fell off the diet wagon and the exercise went out the window. Since then I’ve gained the vast majority of it back.

So what’s different this time I hear you ask? Well not only am I missing fitter, healthier me (because I remember what she feels like for once!) but I had a bit of a realisation. I realised that for the past 10+ years all I have thought about and concentrated on is my career. I have had a difficult fight to get where I am with my job with a few ups and a lot of downs but finally I am at a place of relative stability. At the end of this week I will finish doing my BSc top up (which I’ve been doing round work) and although I was looking at doing another university course I think a year off to concentrate on me is in order. 10+ years of concentrating on everything but me is long enough! So once my last uni essay has gone in (at the end of this week) it’s all about me me me.

My plan is to mostly follow slimming world as an online member due to shift work making attending a group difficult, and do various amounts of exercise either through the gym, classes, or couch to 5k with getting out on my bicycle as I get fitter. I have always previously found the support and encouragement of attending a slimming world group useful but without that this time I wanted to make a blog in order to chart my progress, hopefully gain support from any readers, and maybe even inspire someone else to follow in my footsteps.

So welcome to my journey. Lets take those first steps towards a new future together.

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Week 4

Results of week 4

Well week 4 and I gained 2lb. Not as bad as it could have been but I now need to work hard to get it off again. After promising myself I’d be back on track 100% from Monday I’ve already fallen off. I seem to have an excellent ability to self sabotage. I know what to do but I decide that I don’t want to eat what I have in so I eat something unhealthy, or I go to the shops and buy junk. Then when I get home I eat it as fast as possible so it’s no longer in the house to tempt me. Crazy really. I love seeing the weight come off, and I really want to lose weight, but my head always gets in the way.

On a slightly different note at fitcamp my trainer has a board with everyone’s AMRAP (as many reps as possible) press ups on. I wasn’t on there so we did an AMRAP. It was towards the end of the session and my arms were already dead and I only managed 3 proper press ups. Since then I’ve been trying to do them at home and one thing I’ve found is that it really works your core compared to girlie press ups. And it seems I have no core muscles. My abdo muscles hurt from trying! However hopefully I can keep working on it and next time I can do more.

I’m working now the next 2 days, so may not have time to post, but hopefully I can get back on track and my head back in the game.


I’m back!

Sorry for having been AWOL for a while. Life has been hectic to say the least. The last 2 weeks I’ve been struggling to stay on plan. In part I think it’s due to my poor organisational skills, when the only food you have in your house is chicken or spag bol you get tired of eating the same stuff every day pretty quick! And in part it’s laziness in wanting to work out what to eat, go shopping, and actually prepare it. I can blame life being busy but I think really it’s just an excuse to get out of cooking which I REALLY hate. Mostly because I’m pretty rubbish at it and I’m scared of trying new foods outside of my ‘norm’. This past week I have also been away working at a festival for a few days. Not only did that require a huge amount of driving on not much sleep (about 13.5 hrs in 3 days queue sugar cravings to keep me awake!) but it also meant I had basically no control over what was on the menu, which essentially consisted of chips. Since getting back I’ve been straight back to work and allowed myself to fall back into bad habits as the tiredness from lack of sleep had caught up.

I never posted about last weeks weigh in. I lost half a pound. I knew it wasn’t going to be great. After 2 great weigh in’s I was due a small loss, but not sticking to plan didn’t help. Tomorrow I’m expecting a gain, I already know this after a sneaky weigh in and I’m hoping it’ll only be a few pounds that will be off next week. Tomorrow is the start of a new week and I’m hoping a fresh start on the plan. I have a fitcamp session first thing which always gives me a boost, however, I’m also on the first of my 2 nights shifts which have been a challenge since the start and will probably be even more of a challenge with my current levels of tiredness.

On a positive note to all this doom and gloom I passed the final assignment for my uni degree, which I’ve been doing alongside working full time. It has been such a massive stress for me and knowing that I’ve passed is such a massive relief! Hopefully now I can relax and enjoy life more.

So, I will be back tomorrow or Tuesday to post about my weigh in and how things are going. Wish me luck!

Week 2 done – inches vs pounds

Results of week 2 weigh in

Sorry for not having posted in a few days but with work life’s been rather hectic! So week 2 is now done and I’m very pleased to report having lost another 4lb totalling a whopping 12.5lb in 2 weeks and only 1.5lb off losing that magical first stone. I’m really hoping that by the end of my 6 week biggest loser challenge that I’ll have lost 1.5st – 2st and the way things are going that should be achievable. One thing I have noticed this week is inch loss. When I started this journey I measured inches, but I don’t plan on re-measuring until the end of my 6 week biggest loser challenge. However, my work uniform has become so much looser. At the start of this, and even the start of this week, my trousers were tight on my thighs making them pretty uncomfortable to wear, and I couldn’t have my phone in my trouser pocket. Now my trousers are lose and almost falling off and I can put my phone in my pocket without feeling it. Its amazing the difference a week can make and I can’t wait to re-measure now in 4 weeks.

In other news I have recently persuaded one of my friends to try slimming world. He has been feeling the effects of his weight since starting a less active job and I really want him to be able to enjoy time with his son whilst he’s still young (because grumpy teenagers think parents are uncool)! As someone who has never done slimming world before I’ve recommended he join a group because I think for the first time that support and advice really helps. I’ve offered to go with him to his first group because a first group is daunting to anyone, but as a male walking into a room dominated by women it has to be even more daunting. I really hope he finds it works for him as it does for me. Watch out world because this time next year there’ll be two new slinky people on the beach!

‘Bad’ food and exercise

Junk food and fitcamps

I have only been on slimming world for just over a week but something has happened that’s never happened before, I’m properly ‘tasting’ foods. The funny thing is I’ve realised how bad many junk foods taste. I have had the ‘wobble’ I wrote about at work the other day, the ‘treat’ after weigh day (don’t go shopping hungry on weigh day!), and today I had a post-work out cookie. The wobble food I didn’t really notice, however, the weigh day ‘treat’ I had an ice cream which was nice, some chicken dippers which just tasted greasy, and some chocolate buttons which I was sick of after a few. Today then I decided to have a cookie from M&S as I’d had basically no syns all day, and it tasted of sugar. Before I would have eaten these foods so fast I don’t think I’d have even noticed. Now I’ve been eating ‘proper’ food for a week I can taste what they’re really like and I’ll be honest it isn’t great! Will I learn my lesson? I hope so. I hope that I’ll learn and remember that I don’t actually enjoy these things anymore but I expect I’ll still have slip-ups. I’ll still decide to ‘treat’ myself and then realise it just really wasn’t worth it.

On a slightly different note I’m still amazing myself at the fitcamps. Having not exercised properly in a while, and considering just a few weeks ago I was out of breath going up the stairs, I am managing to keep with, and in some cases even do better than, people who have been going longer than me. I don’t have the best stamina, which is something I’m going to have to work on, but I have good strength. Last week I was using heavier weights than the guy in the class, and today I was doing just as well, if not better, on some of the lifting exercises. It’s really boosted my confidence and I can’t wait to see how far I come in this 6 week biggest loser challenge. Plus I’ve managed to win a free personal training session where I’m sure I’ll be worked even harder! But I can’t wait 🙂

First week weigh in!

Results of my first week of diet and exercise.

Well I’ve finished my first week! (6 days technically). And I’m very very pleased to announce an 8 1/2lb weight loss! In some ways this brings with it mixed feelings. Yes I’m really happy to have taken such a big first step towards losing weight, but at the same time the fact I can lose so much in one week highlights how much I still have to lose. Onwards and downwards though. I’m looking forwards to my next fitcamp session and even thinking of asking if I can do 2 in a day (not sure if it might be a bit much at the moment though).

I may still have a long way to go on my journey but taking the first steps is often the hardest. I’m now really looking forward to my clothes getting looser (it’s slowly starting) and being able to wear the stuff that’s been bundled in the back of the wardrobe since I started regaining last year. I’m also looking forward to getting all the energy back that fitness and healthy eating brings. I know next weeks loss won’t be even close to this weeks but bring it on. I’m looking forwards to welcoming in the new me.

Wibble Wobble

My first wobble since starting

Well my first night shift did present a challenge as expected. Yesterday started with fitcamp at 9.30am. I had another good session and really enjoyed it (in that weird hard exercise way). Later in the afternoon I had a hospital appointment an hours drive away. Usually before nights I have a sleep for a few hours in the afternoon but because of my appointment I couldn’t, however, driving back I was exhausted so I had to make a decision, I could have an hour kip or have dinner. I chose the sleep!

This left me with a problem however when I woke up hungry as I didn’t have anything healthy in the house that didn’t require cooking. As a result I decided to try a quick 90 second microwave pie I had in the cupboard. Big mistake! It was so disgusting I managed half before having to give up and bin the rest. I was still hungry though and as a result once I got to work I ended up eating a grab bag of crisps and a sausage roll. I felt guilty, and my mind was telling me ‘Well you’ve done it now, lets eat more!’. But I resisted. After that I stuck to plan and even when offered biscuits later in the night I turned them down. So yes I’ve had my first wobble, but I got straight back up and I learnt my lesson. Be prepared! I need to make sure I have quick and easy food in the house that I can grab when I’m hungry and in a rush. Hopefully after I finish nights tomorrow morning I can get some shopping sorted and this won’t be an issue again.

All that’s left now is to bring on night no. 2!

Yesterdays food:

  • Breakfast: Weetabix (HxB), milk (HxA)
  • Lunch: SW meatballs and pasta (0)
  • Dinner: Half a Fray Bentos just steak meaty puds (?), prawn cocktail grab bag crisps (?), sausage roll (?)
  • Nights: M&S skinny sausages x2 (1), baked beans (0)
  • Snacks: Peach yogurt (0), freddo (5), quavers (4.5)
  • Drinks: Tea x3 (0), water, coke zero
  • Syns: 15+ (total unknown)
  • Body magic: 50 mins fitcamp

Work work work

Work presents a new challenge.

I had been hoping to post yesterday but as expected work made things harder! Both days I have overruns, only half an hour on the first day but 2 hours on the second. I had also been hoping to start my couch to 5k but because of the overruns it didn’t happen. Back to fitcamp tomorrow though!

In some ways work was easy and in other ways hard. Yesterday I wasn’t hungry at lunch time so didn’t have anything. By home time I was starving! Today I did have lunch but because of how late I finished I was still starving by the time I got home. I just wanted to stuff my face with quick junk food and not anything I had. Instead I had a banana which took the edge of the hunger and allowed me to make a better choice. I was so proud of myself for not giving into my cravings!

Tomorrow is going to be a brand new challenge, night shifts! And not only that but with fitcamp in the morning and a hospital appointment in the afternoon I’ll be going into it without my normal afternoon nap. Watch out world!

Hopefully I can get some better posts out soon when I have a little time.

Yesterdays food:

  • Breakfast: Weetabix (HxB), milk (HxA)
  • Lunch: None
  • Dinner: SW bolognese ragu (0), spaghetti (0), parmesan (2)
  • Snacks: Banana x3 (0), freddo (5), quavers (4.5)
  • Drinks: Tea x3, water, coke zero
  • Total syns: 11.5

Todays food:

  • Breakfast: Weetabix (HxB), milk (HxA), peach yogurt
  • Lunch: M&S skinny sausages x2 (1), baked beans (0)
  • Dinner: Chicken chargrill (3.5), steamed vegtables (0), gravy (2)
  • Snacks: Banana (0), strawberries (0), grapes (0), skips crisps (4.5), peach yogurt (0)
  • Drinks: Tea x2 (0), coke zero (0), hot chocolate (3)
  • Total syns: 14